In the weeks leading up to India's recent tour of England, Akash Deep had one thought weighing on him: "How do I survive five Tests?"
For over two months, Akash Deep had spent several nights in hospital, attending to his sister Jyoti who was undergoing cancer treatment. Diet and sleep had become luxuries. His training was haphazard. Cricket wasn't the most important thing in his life at that time.
It's why Akash Deep spontaneously remembered Jyoti and dedicated his 10-wicket haul in his first Test of the series to her, after India made it 1-1 in Birmingham.
"It was tough," he says while in Bengaluru, where he is preparing for India's home international season. "As such, a five-Test series is not easy. Especially if you're a fast bowler. And at a time when I had to prepare, I was dealing with a lot of things.
"Being in and out of hospital, your diet and sleep often go for a toss. I was actually wondering how do I survive five Tests because even during the IPL because of my sister's treatment, my training was haywire for one, one-and-a-half months. Luckily, I got time in the lead-up to the series thanks to the India A tour, where I had 10-15 days of preparation. I used that time to prepare well."
It's been three whirlwind weeks since Akash Deep's return from England, where he played an important role in India drawing the series 2-2. After a dash home to see his family, he was away on a pilgrimage for "Mann ki shaanti (peace of mind)," and then visited his 'AB Cricket Academy,' which he had begun last year in his hometown Sasaram in Bihar.
"When I was growing up, there was nothing here," he says. "No ground, no practice facility. I didn't even see a red ball until I was 17-18. My thinking was when I have some money and resources, I'll try and help kids who aren't from financially sound backgrounds. So that they don't have to go too far away to train.
"Not being financially strong should not come in the way of living your dreams of playing the game or getting opportunities. I'm glad I've been able to realise my dream [of building an academy]. I have a team that looks after most things, but I guide them and insist, if there are kids coming forward from disadvantaged backgrounds and have the talent, they should be prioritised."
Akash Deep's story is one of courage. Sharing a 150 square feet room with eight others in Kolkata, surviving on lebu cha (lemon tea) to play club cricket, staying with his cousin in Durgapur in search of opportunities, losing his father and brother in the span of a couple of months, he has seen it all. It's why he treasures every moment on the field. "If you find even a little happiness amid all your problems, it's enough to bring a smile."
He wasn't smiling on that tense final morning at The Oval when he dropped Gus Atkinson at long on and palmed the ball over the boundary for six. England needed 11 after that to win the series, India needed one wicket to draw it.
"Maybe I could have tried to palm the ball in to save the six," he says. "But I went to take the catch. Luckily in the next over (two overs later) we got the wicket [of Atkinson]. Immediately after I dropped the catch, there was really no time to dwell on it. Maybe if something else had happened I may have been thinking about it. Luckily I didn't have to worry much.
"I ran really quickly to Siraj [laughs] once we took the final wicket."
That was just one of several memorable moments involving Akash Deep on the tour. Earlier in the fifth Test, he had put his arm around England opener Ben Duckett and said a few friendly words after dismissing him in the first innings.
"He had been out four-five times to me. Before coming out to bat in that innings, he said, 'this time you won't get me out'. I got him out and then said, 'bro, now go and rest please'," he says with a laugh.
There's a memory from Birmingham that stands out. He's watched replays of that dream wicket on loop.
"Joe Root," Akash Deep says with a smile. "The way I got him (bowled). Set him up, and got him out exactly the way I wanted to." For those who don't remember, he pitched on a good length and angled the ball in, before getting it to nip away and beat the outside edge of Root's defence to hit the top of off stump.
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Apart from his 13 wickets in the series, he also made a vital contribution with the bat, scoring a half-century after coming in as a nightwatcher in India's second innings in the fifth Test at The Oval. Akash Deep made 66 in his partnership of 107 with Yashasvi Jaiswal for the third wicket, helping India set a match-winning target of 374.
"Everyone expects me to contribute with the bat, but I haven't been able to do it to all the time," he says. "That innings, I learnt a lot. It taught me to not take my batting casually. When the team needs me, that time I'm motivated."
He also recalls his innings in Brisbane in 2024, when he helped India save the follow-on, to explain what he needs to motivate himself at times. "I think I should put extra pressure on myself as a batter to contribute," he says. "That's what it (The Oval innings) taught me. I was just thinking of building a partnership with Yashasvi.
"They [his team-mates] were happy because the batters used to taunt us in a friendly way, 'kabhi toh kuch kardo (can you also contribute once in a while)', 'dus to bana do, bees to bana do (make 10 or 20 runs at least)', so I felt they'll keep quiet now for some time [laughs]."
Akash Deep is now at the Centre of Excellence in Bengaluru, gearing up for the two-Test series against West Indies from October 2. For the first time in months, he has the mental space to breathe, train, and focus on his game. He doesn't have to go to the hospital at present and he's enjoying the luxury of being able to stay in the moment and do what he loves most.